Saturday, December 29, 2012

Christmas Time!

I was thrilled to be able to spend Christmas in the town I now call home. Many people still ask me if I'm heading home for the holidays, but in reality I am already home everyday. When I head back to Illinois, it's now a time when I'm heading back to visit instead of heading home. I knew this day would come someday, but I never imagined that it would happen so soon in my life. But, God has blessed me with a blessing of a future made out of a past of ashes. 
With Christmas of course comes presents and time with family and friends. All of that was not missed even though I wasn't around anyone who is blood family. Although I was around the people that I call family now also and I wouldn't have had it any other way. Even though it would have been nice to have my family around too. 
Amy didn't lack in the presents department this year as I don't think she ever will. I must say her favorite present wasn't the one her mommy got her, but the one that her Grandma Steffen got her. A soft little puppy who I must admit is pretty adorable. She looks for that puppy where ever she goes and boy is it just absolutely adorable! Among other things she got a beautiful blanket from her Great Grandma Crumbo (who made it herself).
I was thankful to get some gifts this year to help Carrie and I along with our apartment stuff. We are so excited to be moving out and have finally become ready to move, although neither of us have absolutely anything packed and we're supposed to move Tuesday. God works in different ways and I feel him working on something new in my life even though I have no clue what it is yet, but my trust is in him.
As I started my new job, I quickly realized how tiring a forty hour work week can be. Especially one you're not used to working a 2-10 shift doing some hard physical labor. But, I wouldn't give my job up for anything in the world. God has blessed me with a passion to care for others who are unable to do so for themselves and for that I couldn't be any more grateful. As a lot of people sometimes say about my profession it takes a special kind of person to do the job right and I have to agree with that. If your heart isn't in a job you aren't going to give it your all. 
We were all standing around the kitchen today talking and Derek tells Amy, "You're my favorite niece." Of course it's his only niece, but it just melted my heart to know that he thinks of her like that. It's definitely nice to hear that I'm his favorite little sister. It's definitely nice to have those older "brothers" who I can look up to and know that they're going to be there to give me good advice and to remind me that people really do care. I found this awesome quote that I put in Laurie's coffee mug: The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect, and joy in each others life. ~Richard Back

“When God Created Mothers"

When the Good Lord was creating mothers, He was into His sixth day of "overtime" when the angel appeared and said. "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one." 

And God said, "Have you read the specs on this order?" She has to be completely washable, but not plastic. Have 180 moveable parts...all replaceable. Run on black coffee and leftovers. Have a lap that disappears when she stands up. A kiss that can cure anything from a broken leg to a disappointed love affair. And six pairs of hands." 

The angel shook her head slowly and said. "Six pairs of hands.... no way." 

It's not the hands that are causing me problems," God remarked, "it's the three pairs of eyes that mothers have to have." 

That's on the standard model?" asked the angel. God nodded. 

One pair that sees through closed doors when she asks, 'What are you kids doing in there?' when she already knows. Another here in the back of her head that sees what she shouldn't but what she has to know, and of course the ones here in front that can look at a child when he goofs up and say. 'I understand and I love you' without so much as uttering a word." 

God," said the angel touching his sleeve gently, "Get some rest tomorrow...." 

I can't," said God, "I'm so close to creating something so close to myself. Already I have one who heals herself when she is sick...can feed a family of six on one pound of hamburger...and can get a nine year old to stand under a shower." 

The angel circled the model of a mother very slowly. "It's too soft," she sighed. 

But tough!" said God excitedly. "You can imagine what this mother can do or endure." 

Can it think?" 

Not only can it think, but it can reason and compromise," said the Creator. 

Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek. 

There's a leak," she pronounced. "I told You that You were trying to put too much into this model." 

It's not a leak," said the Lord, "It's a tear." 

What's it for?" 

It's for joy, sadness, disappointment, pain, loneliness, and pride." 

You are a genius, " said the angel. 

Somberly, God said, "I didn't put it there.” 
― Erma BombeckWhen God Created Mothers

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

We All Fall Down Sometimes and Cry, But We Get Back Up :)

As my week began I wasn't sure how it was going to go. But, the Lord was there to show me that he's standing right beside me in everything. One of the most important lessons I've learned even in the last day is to let go of what is in the past and focus on what God is bringing to my future. Isaiah 43:17-18 says: "Remember not the former things,
nor consider the things of old.
19 Behold, I am doing a new thing;

now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?"
It's as if God was telling me to be quiet and listen. I'm so thankful we serve a God who never gives up on us and never fails us even when we think he has. 
In this past week Amy's personality is really starting to come out and I see a little bubbly little girl who has a smile for anyone she meets whether it be right away or a few minutes down the road. It melt my heart just to see her little smile as I wake up in the morning. It just brings me the reminder of the faithful God we serve. She really brings light to my life when things seem so dark. God knew what I needed in that time of despair in my life.
I was thinking back to a year ago this time of year and there are all good memories! This time last year I had moved in with my best friend and we have some great memories from the time we lived together before she went and got married on me. Like drinking sparkling grape juice every night for a good two weeks. I headed home for Christmas around this time last year and spent some much needed time with my family. While home I got some maternity pictures taken and they turned out great and they're a great reminder of the bond between a mother and her unborn child!
I start my new job tomorrow afternoon and I'm thrilled. My generation it seems doesn't do enough for the older generation who taught our parents how to raise us. We don't appreciate the advice we're given often enough unfortunately because I think if we did we'd be better off. 
Today Amy decide she'd find out how it felt to take a tumble down the stairs. Let's just say she decided she didn't like it too well. Thank the Lord she is all right and as Laurie puts it, its a good think God made babies out of rubber because Lord knows how much they fall. 
At Amy's nine month appointment she weighed in at 22.5 pounds and 30.5 inches with a head circumference of 48 cm if I remember correctly. In other words she's getting big :) She's in the 100 percentile for height and 95 percentile for weight and head circumference. Trying to keep up with her growing with clothes is difficult. 
As we come into the Christmas holiday I'm thankful to have the holidays off this year. I'm happy to be able to spend the holidays in a place that I now call home...Alto. Alto has become my home and family over the past year and a half. God's really blessed me with such a great church that I now look at as family :)
Oh the things that go on here, like finding that a radio station is playing two different songs at the same time haha!
Here's some random photos to leave you with :)

She's a little ham when it comes to the camera!

She got mad when I walked away with the camera haha!


She's so engrossed in her toys :)



Opening her first Christmas present!

Everyone, but Grandpa watching Amy open her present from Grandma!

With a little help she did pretty good with opening her present!

It took a little prompting :P

She was a happy little girl with her present :)

Trying to figure out what it is!



Her present from Grandma!

 She loves her aminals :)

Again she's a ham ball :)

She's got a bubble personality :)

The things I do because I love her like sleep on the living room floor with her!


I'm innocent mom I promise ;)

Hanging out with Grandma and Aunt Carrie while mommy went and ran errands! 

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

A New Chapter In A Book Called Life :)

As, we live we write in a Book Called Life. I have begun writing the next chapter in my book of life this month. In life we come upon decisions that need to be made, struggles we have to go through to become stronger. Sometimes I forget that I have to make sure I'm taking everything to God because Lord knows that sometimes I lack the faith that he will bring me through whatever I come upon. Even when I lack that faith he shows me that hey, he's going to help me through anything no matter what!
I'm sitting here listening to Christmas music thinking of the responsibility I have to teach my daughter what Christmas is all about and truthfully it's a little nerve wrecking. It's my responsibility to instill the fear of God in this little girl. It's a lot of pressure it seems like, but I know that God is going to give me the words and guidance to do this and to show her who her true father is. Even though it is nerve wrecking I'm excited to be able to pass onto the next generation all that I've learned :)
I know I'm a rather scatterbrained writer, but people get used to it I guess haha! This past week I watched a movie called "Amazing Love." Wow, did it show me how much I can relate to a Bible story. It was very humbling to hear the story of Hosea and say wow I see myself so much in this story. Being able to share that with a person is even more humbling.
As I begin writing this new chapter, it starts with the switch to a new job. God's blessed Amy and I with giving me stepping stones back into the work force. Starting with Heidi's Farmstand and Bakery, I couldn't have asked for a better stepping stone to begin with. It brought me back into the work force slowly enough for both me and for Amy to adjust to. Then moving onto Interim Health Care for a more steady 40 hour week and now into Laurels of Kent for the best stability I could ask for. God' been faithful in helping me to take baby steps in my life and for that I'm ever so grateful!
In this new chapter I'm excited to be writing about a person that has become like a sister to me over the last ten months. Carrie and I are moving out together at the end of the month Lord willing and we're absolutely thrilled. It has been nice having Carrie around and even though we didn't start actually hanging our with each other outside of home until a few months ago I think it's really been a great experience for both of us.
God has just blessed me, my family and friends over these last months and He will continue to bless us in months to come!
Just a few pictures from the last few weeks!
It's beginning to look an awful lot like Christmas!
Lisa Zaagman permed my hair for me!
Watching Singing in The Rain with Grandpa :)
Just hanging out for awhile! <3 my little peanut!
What we call hillbilly Christmas lights :P
We went to see Keith and Kristen Getty for Carrie's Birthday :)
Two songs that have just been evident in my life these past few weeks:
"Do Everything" Steven Curtis Chapman:
You're picking up toys on the living room floorfor the 15th time todayMatching up socks and sweeping up lostCheerios that got awayYou put a baby on your hip and color on your lipsand head out the doorAnd while I may not know you I bet I know youWonder sometimes does it matter at allWe'll let me remind you it all matters just as long as youDo everything you do to the glory of the One who made youCause He made you to doEvery little thing that you do to bring a smile to His faceAnd tell the story of graceWith every move that you makeAnd every little thing you do
Brandon Heath "Love Never Fails"

Love is not proud
Love does not boast
Love after all
Matters the most
Love does not run
Love does not hide
Love does not keep
Locked inside
Love is the river that flows through
Love never fails you
Love will sustain
Love will provide
Love will not cease
At the end of time
Love will protect
Love always hopes
Love still believes
When you don't
Love is the arms that are holding you
Love never fails you

Monday, November 26, 2012

A Month of Thanksgiving!

Well it's been awhile since I last wrote a blog post. Quite a bit I would say happened in the past month. I turned 20, officially knocking me out of the teenager stage in life. As a friend of mine kindly pointed out to me (not that I needed it) I can't do anything more than I could last year. I did have a good birthday though spent with friends who I consider family.
Of course my day wouldn't have been made without this little girl to help :)

Ok, so it took me 4 times to blow the candles out.
As Ben puts it, "I thought you'd have more hot air in you than that"

The wonderful people I call family up here in Alto.
(With Amy and  quite a few people missing)

 Amy is coming up on her 9 month mark here in about a week. It makes me cry just thinking about how long it's been since she was born. Almost nine months ago I was sitting in the hospital with my beautiful new little girl. Everyone keeps telling me they grow up so fast, I see what they mean now. In three months my little girl is going to be 1.
Amy has gone past the just pulling herself up stage to the I'm going to be a big girl and walk along the furniture! It's not going to be long before she starts walking I predict considering she's pulling herself up using objects that have no place for her to hold on to, like our sliding glass door.
The little stinker has also mastered climbing up the stairs already. It seems as if that's her favorite thing to play with grandpa, I climb up and grandpa helps me down. It's so cute to watch those two interact with each other. You can tell he loves her to pieces and that she has him wrapped around her little finger.


Playing toys with grandpa :)

Grandpa has her watching football already :)
 The anniversary of my mom's death was the 16th and it's hard to believe it's already been 8 years. Sometimes it's like it was yesterday and other times it seems like it has been 20 years ago. But, I now have a joyous occasion mixed in with that day as the 17th I got the chance to sit (as a cousin of mine used semantics on) and share my story of how God has worked in my life. Worked he has, it's been an interesting learning period in these last 10 months and I'm sure will be an even more learning experience as the days, weeks, months and years go by. The 18th I was able to bury my past and arise and embrace even more fully my new life as a daughter and bride in Christ.
Connecticut Cousins!

Older girl cousins (subtract 2)

My favorite cousin (or so he thinks) David and I :)

All my family that came up for my baptism! I was surely blessed :)

The two most important people in my life outside of my daughter and Christ.
My grandparents!

My cousin William and I! The funny thing is we match.
November is a month for thanksgiving, although everyday should be filled with thanksgiving. Amy had her first thanksgiving this year and liked pretty much everything I fed her even that pumpkin pie. Not a big surprise considering she eats anything you feed her. We enjoyed spending thanksgiving with Terry's family down in Bluffton and it was a wonderful time.
Cam and his cousins.

Amy sitting on great grandpas lap. She loved trying to get the doggy.
These animals are smart running away from Amy :)

All the girls in our house :)

Carrie and I

She loves her Aunt Carrie

The dog is truly scared of pictures. 

I'd run away if I was a dog and this cat that was bigger than
me was chasing me!

She made for an adorable kitty!

She actually left her bow in for once :)
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
    Try me and know my thoughts!
                            Psalms 139:23


 I'll leave you with some other random pictures from this and that :)
 Dancing with Uncle Derek :)
She got some new shoes and actually let us put them on :)

We found out she likes cookie dough!

She loves helping Grandma!


  • She's a little cheese ball