Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Cranky Mommy, Sick Baby, Guilty as Charged :)


Sitting here at the kitchen table trying to avoid the inevitable, that I actually have to finish my laundry today, clean the bathroom and get some organizing done. What better thing to do to avoid all this, than to write a new blog post :) It's definitely been an interestingly long week. 
Amy had what I thought was a cold, well I thought wrong. When she started throwing up her first bottle of the day three days ago, I started wondering ok is there something I'm missing. Low and behold we get to the doctor’s office last night and find out that she has an ear infection that was on the verge of getting nasty and to think Laurie was giving me a hard time about taking her to the doctor. This mommy knew something more was wrong than just a little cold, considering this is the only time she's been sick in the six months she's been out of the womb. I have to say I am a pretty lucky mommy. Although her antibiotic smells like bubble gum, I'm guessing it doesn't taste like it. Either that or Amy doesn't like bubble gum flavored things. So instead of trying to give her the medicine through the syringe, we mixed it with some yogurt and baby food and she gobbled it right down. 
Amy has been miss I'm going to eat everything and get into everything this past week. She scoots herself everywhere and boy is she rather fast at it too. Crawling I can honestly say is something I'm not looking forward to her doing because then we really have to keep our eye on her every second of the day or else she'll have all grandma's pots and pans out of the cupboard before we know it. Today she apparently wanted her bunny out of the basket so she tipped the basket over in the process knocking everything else out of the basket. Then she proceeded to eat a blue coupon, then chew on her bunny making the bunny (which is white) turn blue on the face.
Last Thursday Jaron and Marla came along with their adorable two boys. Apparently it’s already being arranged that Amy and Ty will be married when they're old enough. I though arranged marriages were a thing of the past haha :) We're sitting around the table at dinner Saturday night and Terry's talking about how Ty better make sure he has good credentials if he plans on marrying his granddaughter. Terry's not smitten by Amy at all :P Friday afternoon we all went to the beach, Amy and mommy took a nap in the car for a little bit, then out to dinner at Kirby's Grill (man am I being introduced to a lot since moving to Michigan). Amy didn't like the beach much this time, due to her being sick. I loved just sitting and watching Jaron and Marla's two boys play in the water and sand. Makes me look forward to the time when Amy starts playing at the beach instead of just laying down. 
Saturday Amy got to hang out with Jaron, Marla, Ty, Aiden, and grandpa and grandma while mommy worked in the morning. I got introduced to shrimp Saturday night and I have to say I liked it. It seems to surprise people that I've never had shrimp before. As seems to have become our routine around here ever Friday or Saturday we watch a movie as a family. Sit around eating popcorn and delicious fruit smoothies that Laurie makes. Saturday night the movie of choice after what I believe was twenty minutes of flipping through movies was Count of Monte Cristo a book I read in high school, but had never seen the movie. Boy, had I forgotten how interesting the story line to that book was.
Sunday Amy proceeded to throw her bottle up all over her, my dress, the baby room floor and the sink in the baby room. So, mommy and Amy went home unfortunately before morning service was even over :( Good ole Eric was a peach and drove Amy and me home so Terry and Laurie still had their car at church. Finally after five nights of Amy waking up six or seven times due to her breathing she finally slept through a night without waking up once last night. The vaporizer I think is finally starting to work, thank God.
I had to laugh last Saturday when giving someone a hard time about their website I was put in my place by being informed my grammar isn't the best on my blog. I must say I think I have a little better excuse (granted this person does have an excuse too, mine's just better :P). When this person tries to write a blog while trying to keep track of a moving almost 6 month old, then I'll give them less or a hard time about their grammar, it's difficult to have perfect grammar and keep track of where Amy went now. There's things she definitely doesn't need to get into. 
Yesterday I got up for work and for once in five days I wasn't running late for work. Friday morning I woke up at 10 after 4, Saturday I woke up at 5 of 4. Though I must say Friday night I was cranky and I warned those that I worked with Saturday that if I was cranky at them I'm sorry. Yesterday after getting home from work I finally gave in and took a nap, after feeling sick at work and getting cranky at Terry and Laurie the day before. After three hours of sleep I was back to my normal sarcastic self and got Amy and I's bedroom cleaned and our sheets washed, now I only have to finish my laundry, organize and clean the bathroom yet on my to do list :)
I was thinking as to who the person was that I was going to talk about this week in my blog about the influence they have had in my life and as I was flipping through Facebook I found the perfect person :)

Amy's Great Grandpa and my Grandfather, he means the world to me. He's been the only father figure that has always been in my life and the one that I know will never leave unless it’s his time to meet Jesus. He can be rough on the edges at times, but he's the most soft hearted (yes I believe I made a new word) man that there is. From childhood to adulthood if there's anyone that I would ever take a hundred percent what they said it would be him. I remember spending time in the summer with him at the farm and how much I always looked forward to that time. Eating breakfast every morning with him and forcing myself to eat liverwurst because I wanted to be just like grandpa. Liverwurst in my opinion is possibly the worst tasting stuff around.  Loading the pigs into the grain truck and going to the pig auction playing with the toys on the big steps and getting a treat that he would buy me. Sitting in the combine every year, going down the field during harvest and watching the corn or beans come out of the auger into the grain truck. Switching from the combine to the grain truck and heading off  to the elevator whether it is the west or the east elevator, getting peanuts at the West Elevator or Candy at the East Elevator. How I loved the harvest time and getting to spend time with my grandpa. Even though I hated helping pick grapes, apples, cherries, peaches, pears it was good for me. I hated picking up sticks so he didn't hurt the lawn mower, picking up apples from the ground as a little tot. I did it all whether it was willingly or he had to give me a boot in the hind end I did it for him. Going to auctions and getting cookies (that was always a special thing and always a memory that I will have forever). He's taught me a great deal about what hard work means and what tough love truly is. I love you grandpa!  
Hanging out by the big boys Saturday :)
 Grand Haven Friday Night
 Omogoodness Kasi! Shes so beautiful! And shes so a spitting image of you! What a cutie, time will come when youll be chasing boys away from her fer sure ;) -Kellie Deatherage 
 All Smiles :) 
 Such a precious Picture :)
 Quick picture Sunday before church. We're missing the two boys, but this family has become a second family to be. I love you all!

 She was so tired last night she fell asleep on grandpa's lap at the dinner table :)
Hanging out at the beach :)
 Finally holding her bottle on her own!
 She got tired of waiting on mom to get her bed made, so she decided to crash on the living room floor. So Precious!
 I'm innocent, hehe, that's what I've got them all believing :P
 She loves her elmo.
 Truly mom I didn't dump it out, I only wanted my bunny!

 Sometimes all she wants is her grandpa. The guy in the background was being a creeper the whole time we were there.
 Look they even lay alike!
 
 Jumping up and down on my grandpa :)
 Hanging out with boys already. Mommy is not ready for this!

 Well she likes the Farmstand's Corn on the Cob
 She found fascination in pulling some leg hair.
 She was intent on eating the bunny!
Amy's future husband (according to Terry)

If you can't tell by all the pictures I'm pretty smitten with my little girl :) This post is long enough, now time to get my to do list finished!

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Fun, Serious and Grateful :)


Well, Amy is continuing to get cuter and cuter every day. As if that's even possible, not that this mommy is partial at all. She has learned to smack her lips together this week and it’s so darn adorable. As she has discovered how to scoot herself around she keeps getting into more and more things. It looks like we're going to have to start baby proofing things. Typically when she wakes up from her afternoon nap Grandpa (aka Terry) is home so her crying from waking up alone in the room soon ceases as mommy says, "Grandpa's home. Should we go find grandpa" that cry soon turns in to a smile as we travel up the stairs to find Grandpa who she loves and adores so much. She loves hanging out with Grandma in the mornings when mommy is at work, or mommy needs to get things done. This mommy looks forward to getting home every day from work and spending time with her precious little girl :) Grandma and Grandpa love hanging out with Amy too :)  As I continue on in life myself I find myself at a crossroad of life. Having passed my CNA exam last Wednesday I seek out a job in the health care field. I applied for a job at Saint Mary's Medical Center the day before taking my exam to be a PCA (Patient Care Assistant) which is just like a CNA without the certificate. I got called on Monday about the job and am uber excited in continuing in the process of possible getting hired. Next Friday I go and do testing to make sure I'm competent enough to work there (not that I have any doubt that I am). As of right now I just continue to work at the Farmstand and will continue to seek God's guidance in the future to come.
I was thinking these past few days of all the people that have influenced my life both past and present. I realized I can't count those people on my fingers and toes combined. God has definitely blessed me with some wonderful people in my life. There's one particular person that God has shown me this week how much she's been there throughout my time here in Michigan, my pregnancy and now even as I raise Amy. I'm not afraid to go to her for advice on different things about Amy and when I should start this or that. Bekah Plattner you've never ceased to amaze me throughout the whole time I've been up here. You were among the first to invite me over for dinner (outside of Laurie, but she met me first I believe :P). You were the first that I discussed the fact that I was going to do adoption when I moved up here. You weren't judgmental about a single thing past or present. When I started repenting I was at your house watching the most adorable boy alive :) When I started repenting you made it a point to talk to me every week to see how I was doing. When I decided to keep Amy you were right there to help me get the things I needed and to plan a baby shower. You were there the day Amy Joy was born and you were there to cut her umbilical cord. You're Auntie Bekah now, tomorrow and forever and don't you forget that. When I went through some rough times this spring you were there to listen, give advice and just be a friend. I couldn't think of a more perfect person for God to give me at the more perfect time. I thank God for your everyday and thank Him for the friendship he has given me. You're one of my greatest role models and one of the few people that I have utter most respect for. I love you, Titus and your dorky husband Aaron :) you guys are the best!
As part of the baby book Bekah gave me for Amy was a notebook with different prayers and verses personalized with Amy's name in them. As I was reading through them today I came across one that as Amy wakes up everyday it's as if she's waking up with this attitude:
May Amy wake each day with an attitude that says, "This is the day the Lord has made, 
Let us rejoice and be glad in it." Help her to sing a new song and may her mouth be 
Filled with laughter and be ready to proclaim what the Lord has done for Amy. May 
Amy shout for joy to the Lord, Worship Him and come before Him with joyful song.
Psalms 118:24, 126:2, 100:1-2
Every morning Amy wakes up with a smile on her face and a giggle out her mouth. Though she cries at first when she wakes up from a nap there is soon a smile on her face when you pick her up. She brings joy to my life, and makes me shout for joy to the Lord that he gave me this wonderful blessing. 



 Having fun in St. Joe's, MI with the 2nd family :)
 She looks like she stuck her finger in a light socket :P
 She finally warmed up to Derek by mid afternoon on Saturday!
 She loves herself her Grandpa :)
 Eating a Lemon :)
 This was right before Amy started crying because she realized Derek had her. *Note Derek and Carrie are siblings*
 Having fun at the beach :)
 Hanging out at the beach with Grandpa :)
 She's a beach girl :)
May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You
 Grandpas teaching her to drive already AHHH!!!
 Look mom I can do a summer sault :)
She's such a cheese ball lately :)

Sunday, August 19, 2012

The Beginning


Last summer I found out that I was pregnant with Amy. I wasn't going to go to Michigan for school, pretty much  I wasn’t going to school at all and just work. About two weeks before school was due to start someone from Calvin called me out of the blue to tell me that even though I was expecting a baby they would still love to have me come to Calvin for school. In the two weeks following that call I got ready for moving to Michigan and start school. I moved to Michigan and started school the 5th of September. At that point it hadn’t dawned on me that there was an Apostolic Church in Alto. I knew it was here because that’s the church my aunt and uncle went to on the Wednesday night they brought me up here. When I came to Michigan I was set on giving Amy up for adoption and had started the process not too long after moving up here. On Columbus Day weekend my aunt and uncle plus their kids came up to Michigan and I went to church in Alto with them that Sunday. That night I went to a cookout at Terry and Laurie’s house (the couple I stay with) and dropped that I was pregnant trying to get a reason why I shouldn’t come back to church. There was no reason for me not to go back. The next weekend I was “sick.” The following weekend Curt Kaeb called me up and offered to let me stay at his house that weekend even though he and his wife weren’t going to be home. Giving me a quite place to stay and do my homework. If he wouldn’t have called me that Friday I never would have come back. Sunday after Sunday I came to church and Sunday after Sunday I continued to put off what I knew I should do. I put off repenting until the 19th of January. That night I finally told myself if I didn’t call Ted and start repenting that night I would put it off even longer. So on the 19th of January I gave my life to the Lord and started on a new journey of life. Two weeks after starting my repentance I decided to keep Amy. It wasn’t an easy decision and if I had it to do again I wouldn’t change a thing. I’ve learned so much in the months following when I first started repenting. I went through a period of having some issues with a couple of guys, not being able to find a job and just being stressed about all the finances. Once I let God take over my guy situation and that door closed, a new door opened and a job came and with that the stress of finances lessened. With one door closing and a new one opening a brand new part of my spiritual walk started. A part where all my trust and faith was in God that things would work out the way he willed. I now have put all my trust in God and my whole life in his hands. One night I was talking to a friend on the phone and the word PEACE just kept coming across the wall. I had thought a couple of weeks before that I had found that Peace and just wasn’t one hundred percent for sure. That night when the word peace came across the wall I knew for sure. My peace continues to strengthen through different struggles that I have had. The night of July 27th my Peace was strengthened when I opened my Bible to Acts 2 verses 25-28.
David said about him: “‘I saw the Lord always before me.     Because he is at my right hand,     I will not be shaken. 26 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;     my body also will rest in hope, 27 because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,     you will not let your holy one see decay.  28 You have made known to me the paths of life;     you will fill me with joy in your presence.
It just strengthened my peace. These verses just showed me that he’ll always be by my side and show me the paths of life he has for me.