Monday, July 15, 2013

No One Is EVER Beyond Repair

"Never Beyond Repair"
by: Evenfound

You’ve done what you promised that you’d never do
Your innocence gone and your fears coming true
How did you end up like this, feeling so lost?

Like your life is in pieces too broken to fix
And chains got you tied to a weight you can’t lift
But the biggest mistake that you made
Isn’t too big

[Chorus]
You’re not beyond repair
Grace meets you anywhere
And the mess of your heart
Is where love’s gonna start
Cause you are, never beyond repair
You’re never beyond repair

For all of your pain there’s a father who hurts
For all of your hurt there’s a healer who works
You’re never too far from his reach
So just believe, just believe

[Chorus]
You’re not beyond repair
Grace meets you anywhere
And the mess of your heart
Is where love’s gonna start
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Cause you are, never beyond repair
Never beyond repair

The moment you gave up
He gave up his life for you
The savior is able,
His forgiveness is the proof

You’re not beyond repair
Grace meets you anywhere
And the mess of your heart
Is where love’s gonna start
Cause you are, never beyond repair
You’re never beyond repair

[Chorus]
You’re not beyond repair
Grace meets you anywhere
And the mess of your heart
Is where love’s gonna start
Cause you are, never beyond repair
You’re never beyond repair
Never beyond repair, 
You’re never beyond repair.

So as I’m driving home from school today the song “Never Beyond Repair” came on and it made me think about myself and where I was two years ago. Two years ago this last week I found out I was pregnant with Amy and I had done the one thing that I had promised myself I would never do. Get pregnant out of wedlock because I didn’t want to be a single mother like my mom was because I saw how she struggled to support four kids on her own. Telling my “second mom” that Wednesday was so life shattering to have to sit there and say I’m pregnant. I felt like my world was crashing down around me. As if my life had broken into a million different pieces. I think back to the day I told my aunt and the day I told my grandparents and I just remember breaking down in tears because I had disappointed them…yet again. I was in a state of where I thought my life was completely beyond repair. I thought “oh boy, God’s really left me alone now.” What I didn’t realize then was what I realize now, no matter how big my mistakes of the past have been there’s not a thing that he hasn’t taken and spread it as far as the east is from the west. I never truly understood the part of Casting Crowns song “East to West” or the verse in the Bible in Psalms 103 that talks about “as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.” There is truly no way to measure how far the east is from the west because it’s infinite it never stops going. Just like Jesus who never stops forgiving. Even though I thought my life was in a million little pieces Jesus was still there to pick me back up and put me back together.
Last January when I found Jesus, truly found him because before I was a “Christian” one of those so called Christians who profess to be a Christian, but doesn’t live their life for Christ on a day to day basis. I was an EVERY Sunday and Wednesday Christian, but not a Monday through Sunday Christian. Last January I found out what it truly means to follow Christ. I found out the meaning to this song without having even heard the song until today. I’ll NEVER be beyond repair, nor was I ever beyond repair in the first place. Jesus never left me for a single second in my life, he was always there, but waiting for me to realize that I needed His love and His guidance throughout my life. He used such a precious, beautiful little girl to get my attention and get me to realize that I’m not beyond repair like I thought I was. I was just like a house after a tornado in a million pieces that just needed to be put back together by a wonderful Creator. He has continued to strengthen me as a “child” as a “daughter” as a “bride to be” in Him. He’s continued to show me how to raise HIS daughter who he’s entrusted in me to raise in a Godly home and environment. I’m blessed that God gave me such a beautiful gift to take care of and to nurture from childhood to adulthood if it be his will. God uses different life circumstances, relationships and experiences to bring us closer to him and our eternal home.

Have a fantastic day!
Trust in the Lord, and do good;
    dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.[b]
Delight yourself in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
    trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
    and your justice as the noonday.


  Psalms 37:3-7