2 Years Already!

I'm sitting here while Amy sleeps...actually while she kicks the wall! Anyways I'm just sitting here thinking about when I found out I was pregnant. I was scared, confused, and didn't know what I was going to do. I remember calling my best friend crying and telling her I'm pregnant. I remember telling my 2nd momma that Monday. I broke down telling her that day, and broke down again when we went to the clinic to find out 100% sure. The hardest people to tell was my grandparents and Aunt because I felt as if I completely let them down by becoming the person I said I'd never become, a single mom. But, in the last two years from the day I found out I was pregnant to my little girl turning 18 months I've learned a lot, changed a lot and grown so much spiritually, emotionally, and psychologically.
In the last two years I learned that Jesus was who was needed to fill that hole that I felt in my heart for years, ever since my mom died. I was seeking to fill that hole with worldly pleasures and all it did was leave a even bigger hole. I was a "christian" all throughout high school or what I thought a christian was, but when I came to the Lord a year and a half ago I found peace, contentment, love, joy, peace and so many other things that just came and filled that hole. When I finally became a daughter of God I found what I was missing all along. That father figure that I longed for and was looking for in all the wrong places.
Crazy thing is, it has been two years since I made the move to Michigan! When my family came they brought the rest of my big stuff up and my Uncle Dan told them while they were loading it in Illinois, "I guess this means it's pretty permanent." I would say me living in Michigan is permanent until the good Lord decides otherwise!
As I made the transition in my life from living in Illinois to moving to Michigan and making Michigan my home, I made the "parent" transition from a wonderful Aunt and Uncle as parents to a wonderful set of "parents" here in Michigan. I look at it this way...My mom started raising me, then my aunt and uncle continued the raising process in the teenage years and now God has given me Terry and Laurie (of course their wonderful kids too!) to help refine and fine tune me.
Now that we've had that little heart to heart let us talk about life in the present :) I am 2 months and 1 week to starting my 200 hour externship to finish up my Medical Assistant Program and become certified! Let's just say I'm beyond thrilled to be done with that part of schooling and am planning on going on further with the ending goal of having a Masters in Nursing and work at a Pregnancy where my passion lies outside of My Jesus and My Daughter!
Amy just continues getting cuter, more hair, and just keeps growing no matter how much I tell her to slow down ha ha! She is into horses right now especially since grandma and grandpa live across the way from horses. Let's just say she is a fast little bugger and we do a lot of chasing to keep her contained to the back of the house. She keeps learning more and more words and sometimes I find myself telling her to sush so mommy can get some homework done. She is definitely her mothers daughter with all her talking, climbing, and having no fear. I'm just waiting for when we must take a trip to the ER because Amy fell and broke something. She's in the stage of everyone is mommy or momma (even grandpa ha ha).
My aunt, uncle and their 4 kids came to visit Labor Day weekend and we enjoyed a weekend of activities. We went to the beach on Saturday, adults only dinner Sunday night and saw them off Monday. Amy LOVED having her little cousins and learned more from them than her mommy would have liked. We were playing toys in the basement a couple of days ago and she's "shooting" me with a gun. Hmm she surely didn't learn that from me :P
The following weekend I headed back to Illinois with Grace and my cute little nephew Kendyn. Boy was the trip down and back rough. Let me tell you, two babies crying at the same time makes for some sanity to be lost! I enjoyed spending time with my family and friends. I got to see my second mommy and have breakfast with her. She got mistaken for grandma (which she is one) and I for mom to both her son and my daughter. I guess I look old enough to have a boy over 10. I got to help wish a very cute Caroline a very happy 4th birthday! Enjoyed bringing apples back from my grandpas tree and boy are they delicious.
This past Friday I had a root canal done. Lucky me I had two roots in the tooth instead of 1 like normal people, but I'm not very normal he he ;P So after a topical anesthetic, a local anesthetic one in the gum and the other on the roof of my mouth (that doctor was lucky he didn't get smacked), and two sets of anesthetic put inside the tooth we finally got my mouth numb enough to get the root canal done. Granted my mouth was numb for 4 1/2 hours after the Dentist was done, but I didn't feel a thing :)
Things coming up in the future...

• October 5&6 Lord willing Amy and I will be heading for CT to my cousin Evan's baptism. I'm excited because it will be my first baptism since I've been baptized :)
• October 10 Amy has surgery to put tubes in her ears and hopefully that will take care of out ear infection issues.
• November 4th I turn 21 and Amy will be 20 months :) Had to put that in there for my Dad here in Michigan :)

Well that's all folks! Hope you have a blessing filled Sunday and until I write again :)

Noah was the go to guy the whole weekend my family was here :)

The girls :)

My two sets of "parents" Illinois "parents" on the left, Michigan "parents" on the right :)

We're told we could pass as sisters :)

 Enjoy the picture flashback overload :)