A Letter to My Little Girl :)

To My Precious Little Peanut,

As I was rocking you to sleep tonight I couldn’t help, but start to cry. You’re my little miracle that showed me the wrong in my life. That little miracle that taught me there’s a bigger meaning to life. The little miracle that has pushed me to be a better person both inside and out and made me work for that. A little miracle that pushed me, to pursue my dreams in life sooner rather than later.  

Although you can’t understand why mommy’s gone so much now, someday I know you will. I go to school for you and me. So, I know that you’ll have everything you need in life. I go to work for you so I can make sure that we’re provided for. The time I spend at work, school, doing homework is for you my precious little bundle of joy.

I know we’ll have our problems down the road when you get older, but I’ll always be your mommy and I will always love you with all my heart. I hope that you’re not anything like me when I was a teenager because I might feel like kicking you in the butt all the time then. I want so much better for you than what I did for myself.

I’ve raised myself up in life with the help of a special person in my life. A person that I hope someday you find and hold close to…Jesus. He’s been my rock and shelter throughout the past year and a half. Even through the ups and downs in my life he’s never left my side. Even through all the stupidity that I’ve made in my life he never stopped loving me. No matter how small I thought I was he saw me for the person I was.

If there’s anything that I hope to teach you in the time that I have with you no matter how short or long it may be it’s that Jesus loves you through the thick and thin. When you feel as if there’s no one else you can rely on or no one else there that cares, remember he’s always there for you!

I know you don’t have a daddy here on earth and maybe someday you will, but you have a heavenly daddy who you can always turn to with all your troubles and cares no matter what time of day it is. He loves you so much that he sent his son for you, to die for you and to save you from a place of despair. He loved your mommy so much that he followed her, and nagged at her until she listened to him and turned her life around. He died for everyone, Grandma and Grandpa, Aunt Carrie, Uncle Derek and Uncle Cameron and even your daddy too.

God brought so many wonderful people into you and mommy’s life to help guide us in life. Help me raise you in the right way and in a Godly way. You have so many people who are like aunts and uncles, cousins, and grandparents here in Alto that even though we don’t have any blood family here we have a family here. A family made of people who care and love us both and do so much for us.

Mommy loves you peanut and I can’t wait to see what new first you do next. I can’t wait to watch you grow up into a beautiful woman someday.

                                                                                                                Love,

                                                                                                                Mommy

First night in her big girl bed. She's growing up so fast!

From Amy's first birthday!

"Hehe I've got grandpa wrapped around my finger" :)

I'm ready mom!

Ready for our first walk outside together in the new year :)

My wonderful Intro classmates!

Enjoyed having my cousin David from CT and Cousin Andrea from IL come visit Amy and I :)

Stay off the road Amy's driving! We're starting her early :P

Terry and his girls :) Except Laurie Sue is missing cuz she was taking the picture :(

Out taking a walk with mommy trying out the Titanic  Scene :)

A Year Already!

I just realized I hadn't written an update in quite some time! Almost a month actually because if I'm not mistaken the last post was the eight of February. Boy has quite a bit happened in the past month.
Amy of course has grown and continues to grow. She turns one today and I am feeling so incredibly blessed, that the Lord gave me my little girl. She has brightened my life and gave me the power and will to turn my life around. Although she wasn't a happy girl at her birthday party due to being sick I think she had plenty of fun :) She's in the stage of walking, but not quite gotten down the balance enough to walk all the time. So, now she gets into even more stuff, which makes for even more stuff her mommy has to pick up, but I don't mind (most of the time). She enjoys going to grandma and grandpa's house and getting to spend time with them.
Amy and I took a trip back to Illinois two weekends ago to visit my family. First time I've traveled that far alone with her and it went fairly well. We enjoyed seeing my family and a close friends newborn. Looking forward to this coming weekend when my cousin and uncle come up to visit Lord willing.
At the end of the month I started school to get my Medical Assistant certification and I'm excited to get the program done. I'm sure the next ten months will fly by like nothing! Today I actually took my first two tests and nailed them both and I couldn't be happier!
Maybe one of these days I'll have more time to sit down and write, but between school, being a mommy and working all of which are full time I don't have much time. May God bless your days, weeks and months ahead.